Monday, December 14, 2009

This past week or two

Things I have been doing:

*Wiping noses
*Giving breathing treatments
*Carrying around Tori like an extra appendage
*Craving chocolate
*Satisfying my craving for chocolate
*Buying medicine
*Administering medicine
*Yelling a lot
*Feeling guilty at lot
*Overall losing it at least a couple times a day

Things I have not been doing:

*Reading my Bible
*Praying - except for the occasional "God Bless America" out of sheer frustration and a desire not to teach my kids words they shouldn't know yet

I am pretty sure that the things I have not been doing are directly affecting the things I have been doing. OK, not the sickness part, but the yelling/guilt/losing it parts. I know myself well enough to know that I cannot change out of sheer will, but I really need the Lord's strength to change my heart so that I'll take better care of myself, and in turn I'll take better care of my family. So, Lord, hook a sister up!


Ashby Howard said...

I agree! How is it that we forget to do just the thinkgs that will ACTUALLY help us get through our days?? SOmetimes I will go on and on about something that's bothering me to mom. Then she'll ask, "Have you been praying about it?" DUH. How could I forget something so obvious? We're not perfect. THANK GOD GOD IS!

Allison said...

I love you, girl! I have been praying for y'all! I hope Tori feels better soon:)